Im not trying to be emo..
Hey people. Im not trying to be emo.. you know very well i hate that. however, let me just pour somethings here..
but before that, for those who are not interested or are not interested or dont know what im talking about, my advise is: dont make assumptions.
firstly, i want to say that no one truly understands me. (my mother is an exclusion)
sometimes, i WANT to do somethings and i have planned it thoroughly. HOWEVER, Allah belum nak izinkan so, what can I do.. Saya hanya merancang tapi Tuhan yang menentukan segalanya. (I only plan but God determines everything) I will try my very best to satisfy your wishes but i cant assure you i will do very well in it. im just too tired for this lah. give me a break.
secondly, i am frustrated with some people. (if youre reading this and you think its you, ingat: siapa makan lada, dia yang terasa pedas) so, dont come to me and annoy me by persitenly asking me if youre the person. if i say i dont wish to talk about this, dont even remind me about. please. sometimes things come, go and then are forgotten. i dont wish to remember the bad memories. thanks for understanding.
thirdly, i cant seem to understand why i did some things. so, if you me acting weird, dont keep asking me if im alright. if i am, i will be so. obviously im not lah. when this happens, (which does often nowadays) just walk away or try to make me crack a smile. dont apologise cause its very irritating.
lastly, i admit. i will do what you want- just to make you happy. however, dont blame me if my mind isnt focused on what you are talking about. i cant help it. i didnt ask to be in this kind of situaiton. BUT Allah dah menentukan jalan kehidupan saye. Saye berserah pada takdir.
oklah. i have to go for my social studies class now. bye bye. so sorry for this post. its just that, i had to let out my feelings. let it be known to those who dont know. (what am i talking man?)
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